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10.10.09

does it take SOMEONE to make up or ruin your day?

i have a problem that i have never seemed to get over.. and that problem of mine is that i let pretty much anyone rule over my emotions..

whether it be a real close friend or a total complete stranger, things they do or say have some weird affect on me. i know for a fact that im a people pleaser, but there are times where i really dont care what they say. but today, i let this stranger yell at me in a middle of parking lot, and now its eating me up. i made a mistake in parking at the wrong place at the wrong time, and thats my fault. i thought that the other cars parked there were vehicles related to the place i was going to. but apparently, I WAS WRONG, and the stranger sure put me at my place.

i dont know whether to cry or be angry. but writing it out has relieved me for such a time. im telling myself that he is a stranger and i will not see him again. theres no need to bad mouth him when deep down i really want to.. but it doesnt make it any better.... like i said, im repeating all this in my head... again thats my problem.. im letting someone rule over my emotions, and i cant seem to get over it..

1 comment:

Dianne said...

i am the same exact way. it's that same feeling when you get yelled at by your parents as a kid...i'm sorry this person ruined your day :(